Showing posts with label music. Show all posts
Showing posts with label music. Show all posts

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

looking back


the last time my daddy heard me sing
i was eighteen years old
i gave it up that year
i guess it was after my voice lessons with
country music singer debra allen
i realized i just didn't want it
she taught me a few things i have to admit
but it seemed like all she was worried about
was my physical appearance
so
i gave it up
and i probably gave up alot more than i realize now

last night i sang for him
i've been working on something special for our wedding
and it is really coming together well
i could tell he was proud to see me alive again
see, when a singer puts down her microphone
she kind of dies
musically speaking
i feel like i have harmonically died
but when i pick that microphone back up
im alive again
music isn't all about talent
music brings forth confidence and personality
i used to light up a room when i sang in a crowded room
people would stop dead in their tracks
it's a feeling that is just undescribable
and i do miss those days


but i've still got it!





Wednesday, January 18, 2012

call on me


...well baby
when times are bad
now call on me darling
and i'll come to you...

..call on me darling
c'mon call on me darling
and i'll come to you...

your not alone, im here too..

.. i need you darling
like the fish need the sea..
so don't ya ever take your sweet love from me..

a man and a woman have each other baby
to find their way in this world

- janis joplin

everytime i hear her sing this song
my mind shuts off and my heart takes over my body acting as a generator
it is my record spinning
spinning round and round
in love
with these beautiful heart gasping lyrics
i cry
i close my eyes
i dance along with the rhythm
of each beat
from the beginning note
to the end
because
im so in love
just like this



Monday, January 9, 2012

we will love and love always


love
it's driving home
feeling the love goosies rush past each hair on your arm
while you listen to the one song
that reminds you
of just how you felt
the moment you fell in love with him

my life feels beautifully chaotic at the moment
i can't seem to stop looking down at my finger
i just smile and go back to how it got there
i will remember these little moments
and smile

chaotic only in the sense
that now i have so many decisions before me
and i have no idea where to start

i've come to realize planning a wedding is a bit overwhelming too

it's funny though
because i have always dreamed of being in this moment in life
since i was a little girl
singing in weddings after weddings
watching every bride before me
walk down the isle to their groom
and now that it is here..
it's like i have bridal block
..instead of writers block

the dress
the flowers
the guests
the music
the hair
makeup
the cake

and before we can begin on any of the above
we have to set a date
it will all come together beautifully
i know it will

im still glowing from that night though
& i will never let this feeling grow dim
because i love him so

we will love and love always












Wednesday, December 28, 2011

simply heavenly




clair de lune
 "light of the moon"
what a beautiful work
but beautiful doesn't quite give it proper credit does it?
it is more beautiful than beautiful
so it deserves a more astounding title don't you think?
simply heavenly
breathtaking
soulfully striken
heart chilling
so much more than my words can express
i want to walk down the isle to my groom to clair de lune
it is so dainty in its unique sound
it has to be played by the angels in heaven
im in love with this heavenly tune
it makes my heart skip stars past the moon









Thursday, December 15, 2011

she talks to angels


every now and then you hear that song on the radio.  that song that makes the hair on your arms stand up in attention. i love to debunk song lyrics, because a song is not just a good tune to tap your feet to on the dash board, its not all about the drum beats, the guitar breaks, and the sound of the bass. each song has a meaning behind each word.

black crowes song "she talks to angels" always takes my lyrical motor mind for a spin
its so powerful, yet so sad
its that kind of song that keeps you wondering thoughts like,
what is the meaning behind that line?

so take a minute and feel the lyrics for yourself
i will highlight my interpretations in RED
what are your interpretations of this song?
i would love to hear them!

she talks to angels

she never mentions the word addiction
in certain company
yes, she'll tell you she's an orphan
after you meet her family
its obvious that this woman is on a down hill spiral dealing with her heroin addiction. she feels alone and depressed and i feel like she lives in a dysfunctional family. it seems like she is a compulsive liar in an attempt to keep her world sane maybe. she hates her addiction.

she paints her eyes as black as night now
pulls those shades down tight
yeah, she gives a smile when the pain comes
the pain gonna make everything alright
the line she paints her eyes black to me signifies the private world she has created while using the drug and pulling the shades down signifies to me as a way to keep the world she has created to herself. she can be anyone she wants to be during this private time of hers and she wants no interruptions from the outside world. she hates that her addiction has enslaved her, but she knows the pain being the drug of course is going to make everything okay.

says she talks to angels
they call her out by name
oh yeah, she talks to angels
says they call her out by her name
drugs make you hallucinate, so of course she talks to angels..

she keeps a lock of hair in her pocket
she wears a cross around her neck
yes, the hair is from a little boy
and the cross is someone she has not met
not yet
i feel like the lock of hair she carries in her pocket is from her little boys being that he is her child. only a mother keeps a lock of hair, so maybe she lost her little boy because of her drug addiction or maybe her addiction is caused from losing her little boy in death? the cross she wears around her neck signifies her faith she has somewhat kept through it all and probably the only reason she has not ended her life. i believe she prays to relieve her pain and she may even pray for death but not by her own hand. she wants to be with the angels she talks to?

she don't know no lover
none that i ever seen
yeah, to her that ain't nothin'
but to me, yeah me
means everything
the line she don't know no lover, i feel like she has nothing else to give to the world or she feels unworthy of love. maybe she fears loving someone would only leave her in death, again. if noone understands her pain what good is love?

she paints her eyes as black as night now
she pulls those shades down tight
oh yeah, there's a smile when the pain comes
the pain gonna make everything alright
alright, yeah heah
she smiles as a release of pain

she talks to angels
says they call out by her name
oh, yeah, heah, angels
call her out by her name
oh, ooh, oh, oh, angels
they call her out by her name
don't you know that they
call her out by her name?
i feel like the angels she talks to could possibly be her little boy, but im still stuck on that one

this song is beautiful, yet so sad