goodnight moon

my fingers seem to keep tap dancing

on this keyboard

they are as lost for letters as i am words

im just not feeling very clever tonight

 i feel peaceful

without thought

its quiet

sometimes it feels good

just to soak in the silence of the night

theres a steady humming coming from my ceiling fan

it's gently sprinkling dust particles

all over my room

while i lay here curled up

in my favorite cheetah blanket

allowing it

im alive and well though

i really need to dust that ceiling fan

tomorrow, that is

i just got off the phone with garrett

it's so nice to hear his sweet voice right before

closing my eyes for the night

usually im in a deep sleep when he calls

and i miss him

that has to be aggravating for him

this electric mattress pad could possibly be the culprit of the matter

but theres no way it is leaving the equation

it's much too nice

it must stay

goodnight moon



wednesday

today has been just fine

i wouldn't have spent my wednesday any other way

im not ashamed to say i didn't get fully dressed until two o'clock

p.m., that is

only because the movie sex and the city ended at that exact time in my life

i always rewind the part when carrie hits big with her wedding bouquet at least three times

you go girl i yell

hit him harder!

it's almost the same feeling a guy gets when his football team scores

pure justice

i sat indian style with my bowl of overcooked ramen noodles

and enjoyed my movie along with my cat jovi

what do i mean by overcooked?
well i didn't burn them if that is what you are guessing

lets just say i thought that i heard the wind blowing

except it wasn't the wind

it was my pot of amazingness spilling over the rim

they tasted great to me

and why not throw in yet another trip to jackson?

cool

so i bought mom a breadman for christmas, right?

well it turns out, it had a huge dent on the side of it and the lid just would not cooperate

so..
aggravation immediately sets in

needless to say it's unhappy self was going back home to target

can i get a amen?

in an attempt to exchange for a new one

guess what?

there wasn't any in stock

anywhere!

who else buys a freaking bread making machine besides me??

everyone else in the whole united freaking states does, that's who!

american's love bread?

no kidding

isn't that the reason we are so obese?

why can't america be out of slim fast?

okay so that was a little harsh

i will 'simmer down now' on that note

but we did get our money back

and we will be ordering online

why didn't i think of that in the first place?

online shopping is so much easier

so my day ended with apollo 18

and my sweetheart

i felt like i was watching the blair witch project from space

and word to the wise: don't waste your money on this film

it wasn't anything like my all-time favorite

armaggedon

featuring steven t

but it sure was nice to squeeze the life out of garretts arm

on the scary parts

or was that him squeezing the life out of me?

..kidding..

: )

this is all i got

i have decided to compile a list of things that i bet you didn't know about me, mainly because i have nothing else to talk about tonight. super dooper, here we go:

1. i have two "snake bite" freckles on my neck just like actress rachel mcadams ( allie on the notebook). pretty dope.

2. i dislike donuts, actually they dislike me. im thinking i may have donaphobia.

3. when most girls would tell you their favorite movie is "the notebook", i would tell you mine is "armaggedon", mainly because the soundtrack is pretty much aerosmith, but the movie really does make me cry like a baby.

4. my favorite cartoon when i was little was aahh real monsters, 90's kid i was.

5. i have a knife phobia.

6. i used to have bleach blonde hair and i actually thought it looked good then. wrong.

7. i collect sock monkeys, blue willow china, and tea pots.

8. my favorite color is yellow and my favorite flower yellow roses.

9. i have really, really bad luck with animals.

10. the thought of getting wrinkles scares me.

11. i love audrey hepburn and i watch all of her films.

12. i hate my upper lateral incisors.

13. the worst pain i have ever experienced was when i stepped on a toothpick and it went half way into my heel. yes, ouch!

14. i plan to rock black converse shoes under my wedding dress when i get married.

15. my favorite tv show is that metal show. love those guys.

16. i love an amaretto sour.

17. i wish my name was spelled differently.

18. i love avenged sevenfold's lead singer m. shadows (matt sanders) voice.

19. my favorite thing to wear around the house is my run dmc t-shirt and a pair of black leggings.

20. i want to go to key west.

peanut butter pancakes

the only aggravation i faced today was this: seeing slash on that metal show for the 100th time. so in other words, today was great. i mean, i love slash don't get me wrong, but why can't they show newer episodes?? i have seen them all. except for the episode with joey kramer. i keep missing it and i need to see joey! we share the same birthday PLUS he is the drummer for aerosmith. we have a connection, you see?

oh, it's only my favorite tv show ever

so while i was making peanut butter pancakes this evening, i thought of something really cool to write about. listen up, this be the bible of the blues.

top ten things that i spend money on:

(this could be interesting, right?)

no particular order homies

1. victoria's secret pink collection

2. tall sugar free red bull energy drinks

3. rolling stone magazines

4. mcdonald happy meals

5.black & gray eyeshadow shades i swear i have them all

6. quirky books that noone but me buys for some reason

7. bedding/pillows

8. gas for my jeep beep

9. odd ball items that make me giggle

10. i play my chances at the toy vending machines, even though i never ever win. but oneday, i will.

and you know what? it is really funny to see what kind of things i spend my money on, compared to other girls. because here is my list of things i would think most girls would spend their money on. i still fall into a few of these, of course but just not near as most girls do.

1. spray tans/tanning bed

2. manicures & pedicures

3. shoes, shoes, shoes

4. purses

5. designer sunglasses

6. hair extensions

7. hair care period

8. designer jeans

9. im running out

10. of things now..

but you get the point right?

and maybe im just a weirdo, but that is okay i suppose : )

cheesecake smiles for a thousand miles

i know its been a while.. but here is what has happened lately in my life in a gist because i am way too lazy to go in detail tonight. hang on, here it goes:


canton flea market- crazy wide eyed shoppers who think that they have to buy every piece of crap they lay eyes on and apparently think you are transparent while walking. will i ever go again? jello no. i bought a clint eastwood shirt who i thought at first was james dean, a hit stick, a five dollar lemonade, and a three dollar squishy egg yoke spatter ball that totally kept me amused the whole rest of the day. it's three dollar self busted after i threw it at my grandmas screen door and that was the last of the squishy egg yoke spatter ball. just kidding about the fight stick even though it would have been very useful.

750 ( over 3 feet wide) panoramic puzzle of times square- it took me approx. four days to complete. im very proud of myself, can't you tell. big accomplishment for me. im thinking about maybe getting it framed. here it is!

iSpeech obama app- funniest blackberry app i have ever seen.


obama will say anything you tell him to

  that should do it.


so now that we are up to date.. last night me and garrett were looking at one of my grandmas cookbooks and there was a picture of a chocolate-cherry cheesecake on the cover. oh i got that, shoot! he was practically drooling so i decided i would make it for him. i knew it was going to take me all-day to make it so i got up this a.m. to get all the things i would need to make it. i didn't know it would take five hours though, but it was well worth it. he loved it making it a success.

after spending five hours making this divine cheese cake from scratch, i realized cooking takes alot of work, no wonder people shop from the frozen section. it's so much easier. i had to clean the kitchen at least three times because i am such a messy cook. i had oreos/butter in my hair, cherry syrup dripping from the counters to the floor, and oreos in my cool whip container. not complaining. and fyi: whipping cream and cool whip are NOT the same thing. i grabbed the cool whip instead of whipping cream in walmart because i thought whipping cream was the same thing as cool whip, and it is not.






so mine didn't look exactly like the picture, so what it never does right? it was still amazing.

 and i do this all because i love him.


happy monday to me : )

just a thought

ladies, leggings are not meant to be worn under gym shorts.

uggs are called uggs for a reason: they are ugg-ly.

your jeans are too tight when your zipper no longer "zips".
word: do the world a favor and refrain from doing the above.

whew, i feel better now
: )
that is all

oh bobby!

is it wrong of me that i deleted my mother as my friend on facebook a few months ago? and i didn't do it to hurt her, i have just come to believe that it is best to not have your parents as your "friend" on facebook, and it isn't that im a bad child and im hiding something from her, it is just something i have decided is a -not!

so if i were to have a hot and not article in a magazine, this would def be a not, you see lightbulbs too? ahh cool


so, the subject of the matter came into convo tonight and it was pretty spankin' halarious so i will share it with you, it went a little something like this..


mom: well i would "like" what you commented on that status if i was your friend on facebook you know..
me: ok, ok.. i will do you the honor of befriending me again mom.
mom: no, that's okay..
me: why bobby??
mom: because you deleted me as your "friend" on facebook, i have to teach you a lesson, i have to play "hard to get me back facebook friend now"
me: well you know, i can do the same thing too by rejecting your friend request if you ever friend request me in the future since you have verbally rejected me via person.
me: and don't you want to read all of my juicy status's again?
mom: i have connections, so i can read your juicy status's all i want without being your friend on facebook.
me: i have connections also bobby, you have no idea


epic fail? maybe so, but it was still funny. i never knew "de-friending" someone on facebook could be such an insult! who knew!?

dog tacos and queen of rock

would it be totally unprofessional if i wore my rockstar converse all stars to work tomorrow?

i mean, if i can rock my zebra danskos all day long, boss man won't mind if i rock these, right?

so i just got home from braydens soccer game and aunt cowie is so proud of him for making a field goal! he was so proud of himself, he ran to his mommy and gave her a big hug, bittersweet.

well, you know what time it is, nikki sixx's radio show and he is seriously talking about birth control for your dogs and cats. im pretty sure he fell off of the turnip truck! thank goodness zeppelin just jumped in, because i was considering another station.  all of his discussions here lately are sickening, c'mon man and do you really think i want to hear your view on why we should be eating dog in our tacos?

moving on..

oh, i just love janis joplin. anyone who doesn't should be ashamed of themselves for that. what an amazing lady in rock and roll who paved the way for countless women in rock. her voice is so powerful, full of bluesy rough around the edge intense sound that could never be replicated, i don't believe it.

my two favorite songs that she sings is piece of my heart and mercedes benz.

i will sing my babies to sleep with mercedes benz.



my silly little tid bit

the beatles are THE BEATLES. and if you have a love for their beautiful sound like me, then you have a love for john lennon as well. as you know, i love reading autobiographies, well i found a little book written by paul mccartney and yoko ono devoted to john lennon. and in this little book are quirky, funny collections of stories, poems and drawings by lennon. i found this particular story quite amusing.

john and yoko in paris

the fat growth on eric hearble

one fat morning eric hearble wake up with an abnorman fat growth a bombly on his head. 'oh crumb,' said eric hearble, who was a very, very suprised. anyway he carried on as norman for why should he worried? all of suddy he heard a small little voice calling him by name, 'eric... eric hearble' it seemed to say though i couldn't say for sure.

that night the very same voice spoke saying 'eric, i am a growth on your very head, help me, eric'.

soon eric became very attached to his fat growth friend.

'call me scab,' the voice said and he was.

'call me eric,' eric said naturly as he could. from then on you never saw eric without the big fat scab growth on his head. and that's why eric hearble lost his job teaching spastics to dance.

'were not having a cripple teaching our lads,' said headmaster.

what scares the shit out of me

i really like the title i chose for this one, its kind of blunt but to the point. i think its great!


everyone has fears. things that they may not call a "fear", maybe it's just more like a worry, ya know a tic on their back.
and maybe everyone's worries and fears aren't the same, maybe some aren't as severe.


well, i got alot of tic's on my back:


don't laugh, here it goes..


im scared of falling asleep/the dark. and it is probaly my #1 fear, not even kidding! it's so silly and pathetic of me. but i've always had the fear of falling asleep mostly because im all alone in the dark. sometimes i'll stay up for a while just thinking of things that could happen to me while im sleeping and it will literally keep me up. and as far as the dark goes, if it's really dark when i get home late, i will call mom and tell her to stand by the door. sad, but so true.


gaining weight has always been one of my fears. i've never been over weight, if im anything im underweight. i know the mirror lies, i see only what my mind see's but it's hard to keep that in perspective. i don't think anyone knows how insecure i am about it, and i have never wanted anyone to know. so it's a big deal that im even writing this one down. no, i've never had an eating disorder. it's just something that lingers in my mind before i eat anything or while im getting dressed. im not underconfident, i have good days and bad days just like any other girl. im just extremely cautious i guess.


im afraid of bridges and heights. new bridges scare me because well, they are new. and it's funny because you would think i would be more afraid of the older bridges.. maybe im scared they aren't built as good as the old? idk. im getting better at bridges though, because before, i had to cover my eyes and hold my breathe until i made it across.


knives. i think i already explained this one before, but i'll share it again. so if i walk in the kitchen, and there is a knife lying on the counter in my direction eeek, omgah freak out spasm! i hate it, hate it, hate it. and i've never had a bad experience with a knife, that's what i can't understand.


dying young. i guess that's everyone's fear though. but i want to live a long life full of suprises and happyness, i don't want to miss out on anything i should have experienced. i want to get married and be married for years! and i want to have babies that look like me and their daddy because he's what i love to look at best, watch them grow and spoil them with all my love..i want all of it, every photograph, prayer, crayon smile and giggle. and that's what kenny calls the "good stuff".

i think way to much

have you ever had a dream that you felt you had already dreamed before, but then again..not really? deja vu. it's so eerie to me. i don't even think i can remember the dream to tell you what it was about, but when i woke up i knew whatever it was i dreamed, i had dreamed of it before. that didn't quite roll off the tongue smooth did it?


isn't that just weird. and why is it the moment i wake up, poof its gone! where did it go, and why can't i remember it? does God mean for me not to remember it? is it kind of like the after affects of childbirth, where your not suppose to remember the pain? its like you remember, but you don't. you can see it deep inside your mind, but you can't quite get the right words out to explain it to yourself or someone. the unexplained has always fascinated me. i wanna know why!


i bought a book a few months ago, its called the dictionary of dreams. at the beginning of the book, it explains what dreams are, which are hallucinations they say. really? ok. i guess that makes sense, kind of. then it proceeds into the different stages of sleep.. and let me tell you it is some kind of equation! im not going to go into all that because well, it just makes me want to cut my finger off.. so google it if you must because it's just too psychological for me to explain.

this is my copy but they come in different covers!

anyway, in this book it has pretty much any kind of dream you can imagine dreaming. so for instance, if you dreamed of falling, you would look under the f's and it would tell you why you dreamed of falling. or if you dreamed of a tomato it would tell you why you dreamed of a tomato, you get the point right? and yes, tomato is really in there. it's pretty cool but most of them tell you reasons you had already guessed, so it's not like it's a big suprise. oh, that's why i dreamed that!


i keep that book on my night stand, just in case i need it. it comes in handy, sometimes. kind of like my security blanket, because i have bad dreams, alot. and i don't like sleeping alone, never have because im scared of the dark, betcha didn't know that huh!


 i love quirky books.


today was ehh.. okay i guess. since i didn't have to work today, i had to find something to do and boy did i!


i went shopping and i did okay until i went in janie's pastry shop. just when i was bragging about how good i was doing on watching my spending.. i buy a 20 dollar italian creme cake. the sad part is, it wasn't even that good. i was not impressed at all. i felt like someone popped my balloon.

it looked great sitting on that shelf next to the red velvet cake and german chocolate cake.. but after i took a bite, i could hear my taste buds laughing and pointing in disgust. really, i thought janie's pastry cakes were the bomb.com? fonies. 


but i did make the lady write my name on the cake, i mean if im going to pay 20 dollars for a cake, its going to at least have my name on it! the lady was like, "you don't want happy birthday on the cake?" my reply: "no thanks, im just awesome".


brillant.


so, when i get home this afternoon i turn on the tube, and what is on? "after armageddon" on the history channel, and if you can imagine its kind of out there. i changed it real quick at first, but then i got curious so i turned it back. nothing else was on anyway. and those kind of shows scare me, because its real and possible.


it was explaining how the world would be after everything was gone pretty much. things like water and gasoline would be crucial to one's survival. people would literally be killing each other to survive, its crazy. but if you think about it, that's how the world would be in that kind of epidemic. that's how the world is these days. not saying all of our world has gone to crap, but most of it has. but just think back how our world was during hurricane katrina! people were fighting each other for gasoline, and stealing from grocery stores! 




sometimes we don't lend a helping hand or spare a piece of our loaves of bread like jesus did with the 5,000. it's sad, but it's true. so what would we do, if we had to chose between our survival or someone else's??




would we share our precious goods with our fellow men, or would we keep them for ourselves? it would be a hard decision, no doubt in that particular situation. you think, oh of course i would.. but im sure it's not that easy to say once your in those shoes.


lets face it, we're all human. it wouldn't be crazy of us to second guess things like that, because we are human. but we all have hearts, sometimes we just have to dig to reach it, but it's there, and if we dig just deep enough, we would make the right choice.

twenty-one things that annoy me

this is a list of "21" things that i have found annoy me, here we go:
(no particular order)


1. people who don't speak english.


2. white people who think they are black.


3. people who complain or whine constantly.


4. the lady at wal-mart who talks herself through every single move she makes while she is checking you out.


5. rap music


6. when someone leaves a knife on the kitchen counter out in the open.


7. people who stare, its very rude.


8. bruno mars new music video  "the lazy song". i don't care to see him with his pants down around his ankles, much less five other monkeys.


9.  people who smoke right in my face.


10. people who smoke period.


11. loud music in restraunts.


12. when someone leaves the gas pump clicker push in, and gas goes everywhere when i use it. especially if im wearing heels, ick!


13. when rite-aid is all out of my 901B lip shade : (


14. when cashiers put my change on top of the bills, it just ends up on the floor.


15. left over pizza in the refridgerater.


16. people who are naturally gross.


17. merging drivers who don't step on the gas pedal, instead they stop.


18. fat people wearing flip flops.


19. people who change their babies diaper in public places or right in front of you.


20. people who wear their pajama's in public places.


21. overly religious people.

thirty things to do before i am thirty

30 things i would like to do before i am 30:
(no particular order..)


1. learn how to cook with wine, and be good at it.


2. ride a rollercoaster and keep my eyes open the whole time while screaming bloody murder.


3. finish every half-read book i own.


4. learn how to fold those annoying fitted sheets.


5. write garrett a song with my guitar and get it recorded for him.


6. get back on that stage where i belong.


7. do pilates religiously.


8. learn how to cook turnip greens.


9. clean out my neglected email inbox.


10. become a good wifey.


11. become a good mommie.


12. learn how to cut grass. hmm. maybe i should bite my tongue on that one.


13. get a professional massage at a spa.


14.(test)drive a land rover.


15. go to hollywoods boulevard walk of fame and place my hands where audrey hepburns are. oh and of course the beatles.


16. have a star named after me by the international star registry.


17. stop drinking sodas.


18. stand on the top of a tall sky scraper building and look down to cure my fear of heights.


19. find the perfect "red lip-stick" shade for me.


20. grow a lemon tree.


21. walk up an escalator that is going down in a crowded place. i just think it would be funny.


22. stay up all night and watch the sun rise.


23. watch a meteor shower.


24. have an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment.


25. steal a road sign.


26. go on a road-trip.


27. learn how to make pottery. i have always wanted to do that as a hobbie.


28. go to key west.


29. change someones life.


30. shoot a gun that knocks me off my feet.