9.14.11



squeezing the last drops of summa out!



picture a day!

i have decided it would be fun to post a picture a day, even though it may turn out to be picture a post.. we'll see! here's your first picture, enjoy! : )




midget wrestling on tru tv september 14

of course, its that important that we have to put on on the side note part of our appointment book at work! 

love, me

in just a few hours me and garrett will be dating two years and 1 month. seems a lot longer though to me.. it's funny how you meet someone and you feel like you've known them for a lifetime, but in reality you haven't known them very long at all compared to the length of a "lifetime". where has he been all my life? and why couldn't i have met him sooner? 


 there's so many memories in my past i wish he could have shared with me, pictures i wish his face were in,.. so many parts of his life i wish i could have been apart of.  that's just life.. but i just feel so blessed to have met him when i did, he's pretty amazing. i couldn't imagine being with any other guy, honestly.


he loves me like i've never been loved before, he's special and one of a kind, and i love him so very much.


he treats me like im supposed to be treated. he spoils me. but the good kind of spoilt.


he's like that dress i find that fits just right. that dress that makes me sparkle in a crowded room and he makes me look amazing. how's that for a metaphor?


 i can remember the first time i saw him at that restraunt. he caught my eye like no one has ever grabbed my gaze before and i just wanted to stare, and  i tried not to! i didn't know who he was, i had no clue, but i knew i would see him again. and you can't tell me God didn't have anything to do with that, because i believe He did.


i was so worried i wouldn't see that guy again.. and now im his girlfriend of two years. love is silly, and has a mind of it's own! love knows just when to "jump-in" and always has perfect timing. and i love every bit of it.


and you know that it's love when you see a person, for only the person they are inside.. not for their past, no you don't even think of their past, what past? and when you forgive, you forgive quickly. or when your sorry, your truly sorry almost instantly because you love that person so much, nothing is worth fighting over.. no fight is worth destroying something so great. and you love, easy. it just comes easily.

love isn't just a word, it's a feeling and it's real when it's right

what scares the shit out of me

i really like the title i chose for this one, its kind of blunt but to the point. i think its great!


everyone has fears. things that they may not call a "fear", maybe it's just more like a worry, ya know a tic on their back.
and maybe everyone's worries and fears aren't the same, maybe some aren't as severe.


well, i got alot of tic's on my back:


don't laugh, here it goes..


im scared of falling asleep/the dark. and it is probaly my #1 fear, not even kidding! it's so silly and pathetic of me. but i've always had the fear of falling asleep mostly because im all alone in the dark. sometimes i'll stay up for a while just thinking of things that could happen to me while im sleeping and it will literally keep me up. and as far as the dark goes, if it's really dark when i get home late, i will call mom and tell her to stand by the door. sad, but so true.


gaining weight has always been one of my fears. i've never been over weight, if im anything im underweight. i know the mirror lies, i see only what my mind see's but it's hard to keep that in perspective. i don't think anyone knows how insecure i am about it, and i have never wanted anyone to know. so it's a big deal that im even writing this one down. no, i've never had an eating disorder. it's just something that lingers in my mind before i eat anything or while im getting dressed. im not underconfident, i have good days and bad days just like any other girl. im just extremely cautious i guess.


im afraid of bridges and heights. new bridges scare me because well, they are new. and it's funny because you would think i would be more afraid of the older bridges.. maybe im scared they aren't built as good as the old? idk. im getting better at bridges though, because before, i had to cover my eyes and hold my breathe until i made it across.


knives. i think i already explained this one before, but i'll share it again. so if i walk in the kitchen, and there is a knife lying on the counter in my direction eeek, omgah freak out spasm! i hate it, hate it, hate it. and i've never had a bad experience with a knife, that's what i can't understand.


dying young. i guess that's everyone's fear though. but i want to live a long life full of suprises and happyness, i don't want to miss out on anything i should have experienced. i want to get married and be married for years! and i want to have babies that look like me and their daddy because he's what i love to look at best, watch them grow and spoil them with all my love..i want all of it, every photograph, prayer, crayon smile and giggle. and that's what kenny calls the "good stuff".

i think way to much

have you ever had a dream that you felt you had already dreamed before, but then again..not really? deja vu. it's so eerie to me. i don't even think i can remember the dream to tell you what it was about, but when i woke up i knew whatever it was i dreamed, i had dreamed of it before. that didn't quite roll off the tongue smooth did it?


isn't that just weird. and why is it the moment i wake up, poof its gone! where did it go, and why can't i remember it? does God mean for me not to remember it? is it kind of like the after affects of childbirth, where your not suppose to remember the pain? its like you remember, but you don't. you can see it deep inside your mind, but you can't quite get the right words out to explain it to yourself or someone. the unexplained has always fascinated me. i wanna know why!


i bought a book a few months ago, its called the dictionary of dreams. at the beginning of the book, it explains what dreams are, which are hallucinations they say. really? ok. i guess that makes sense, kind of. then it proceeds into the different stages of sleep.. and let me tell you it is some kind of equation! im not going to go into all that because well, it just makes me want to cut my finger off.. so google it if you must because it's just too psychological for me to explain.

this is my copy but they come in different covers!

anyway, in this book it has pretty much any kind of dream you can imagine dreaming. so for instance, if you dreamed of falling, you would look under the f's and it would tell you why you dreamed of falling. or if you dreamed of a tomato it would tell you why you dreamed of a tomato, you get the point right? and yes, tomato is really in there. it's pretty cool but most of them tell you reasons you had already guessed, so it's not like it's a big suprise. oh, that's why i dreamed that!


i keep that book on my night stand, just in case i need it. it comes in handy, sometimes. kind of like my security blanket, because i have bad dreams, alot. and i don't like sleeping alone, never have because im scared of the dark, betcha didn't know that huh!


 i love quirky books.


today was ehh.. okay i guess. since i didn't have to work today, i had to find something to do and boy did i!


i went shopping and i did okay until i went in janie's pastry shop. just when i was bragging about how good i was doing on watching my spending.. i buy a 20 dollar italian creme cake. the sad part is, it wasn't even that good. i was not impressed at all. i felt like someone popped my balloon.

it looked great sitting on that shelf next to the red velvet cake and german chocolate cake.. but after i took a bite, i could hear my taste buds laughing and pointing in disgust. really, i thought janie's pastry cakes were the bomb.com? fonies. 


but i did make the lady write my name on the cake, i mean if im going to pay 20 dollars for a cake, its going to at least have my name on it! the lady was like, "you don't want happy birthday on the cake?" my reply: "no thanks, im just awesome".


brillant.


so, when i get home this afternoon i turn on the tube, and what is on? "after armageddon" on the history channel, and if you can imagine its kind of out there. i changed it real quick at first, but then i got curious so i turned it back. nothing else was on anyway. and those kind of shows scare me, because its real and possible.


it was explaining how the world would be after everything was gone pretty much. things like water and gasoline would be crucial to one's survival. people would literally be killing each other to survive, its crazy. but if you think about it, that's how the world would be in that kind of epidemic. that's how the world is these days. not saying all of our world has gone to crap, but most of it has. but just think back how our world was during hurricane katrina! people were fighting each other for gasoline, and stealing from grocery stores! 




sometimes we don't lend a helping hand or spare a piece of our loaves of bread like jesus did with the 5,000. it's sad, but it's true. so what would we do, if we had to chose between our survival or someone else's??




would we share our precious goods with our fellow men, or would we keep them for ourselves? it would be a hard decision, no doubt in that particular situation. you think, oh of course i would.. but im sure it's not that easy to say once your in those shoes.


lets face it, we're all human. it wouldn't be crazy of us to second guess things like that, because we are human. but we all have hearts, sometimes we just have to dig to reach it, but it's there, and if we dig just deep enough, we would make the right choice.

macaroni and moo cows!

i asked brayden what to name this one, his answer.. macaroni and moo cows.. so there you have it! where do kids get their ideas from a clown? and why is nikki sixx talking about hygiene on his radio show tonight? did he really just say fungus puppet? what the world? my head is cocked to the side like nipper.


fall is creeping back in and it makes me want to roll around in the grass like a blind st. bernard.. its wonderful! the leaves are changing dookie brown and falling because they are well, dying.. how poetic.


fall is great and its my favorite.. then spring, but not the "in- between" because that's the part of the year when i usually get sick. crud.


today is my wednesday off. i needed new scrubs so that was first thing on my "to do list" today. i couldn't believe it, but i got three pairs of scrubs for fifty bucks. and that guys, is amazing because i usually pay fifty bucks for one pair of scrubs which is ridiculous.


here lately i have really started watching my spending. am i growing up you ask? pssh nahh.. i guess im just in that stage of life where im figuring things out, and my brain registers thoughts like..hey dumbass you don't have to pay that much for that, when the same thing is right here for less.. in comparison to grabbing everything i like without even noticing the price tag! it just makes sense now and i see light bulbs. weeeee.


and i only curse when it's neccessary, and sometimes it's just the right word to get my point across. so im apologizing ahead of time. i mean, you got to let a wordy dird slip every now and then, its healthy in my opinion.


i used to never, ever shop on the sale racks never! it was like it was against my religion or something. and i will admit, clothes on the sale rack weren't "good enough" for me then. no, no don't think awful of me please. but now, its crazy the things you can find on those lonely racks! i figured it out, BAM its like someone hit me upside the noggin' with a brick! like just the other day, i found a pencil skirt for five dollars.. and it looks rockstar... just imagine..two slanted pocket zippers on the front.. black lace trim on the end. this skirt was originally forty-five dollars. shazamm money in my pocket. i like to use alot of sound effects when i write. :)


and here's the secret.. even though you love that jessica simpson top to death and its the end of the world if you don't take it home with you that day.. wait. you see it. there it is. its on the sale rack, not even a month later. yep, the stores are like nasty toll-free callers out to get you. don't let them trick you though, because its all a big conspiracy. they are brillant though, i have to hand it to em'. applaud.


yesterday, our house was like a kid zoo by the end of the day and i have to share because my nephew is so stinkin' funny. have you ever heard of a two-pickle cheese sandwich?? well its just as it sounds, two pieces of bread.. a slice of cheese and two dill pickles in between. that is what brayden told me he wanted for lunch, so that's what the little guy got! would you believe it, if i told you he actually ate the whole sandwich? its his favorite sandwich. that kid loves him some mountain dew too.

he is such a mess, but i love his little personality. he reminds me of.. well, me when i was little, always running around crazy, laughing hysterically. "my ears are flopping" stage. and if you know me pretty good, that past sentence just made perfect sense.


paxton is getting bigger everytime i see him. his personality should come peaking out soon enough. he's becoming a chunky monkey and his eyes aren't so cross eyed. the other day i sang him to sleep with "don't cry" by guns and roses. knocked him out flat like a pan cake. figuritively speaking of course. i would never "flatten" my little nephew out like a pan cake, that's disturbing.  i will sing it to my babies oneday.

gracie is a busy little girl and will do anything she wants to. lil' girl knows what she wants, nothing wrong with that. im not as close to gracie, as i am brayden and paxman but that's only because i don't see her as much and she doesn't live just right down the road from our house. we will get closer though because i will have to teach her the "tricks" to shopping so good like her aunt callie.

so sunday was garrett's momas 50th birthday. we took her out to eat to celebrate. she so doesn't look 50, not even near it. i hope i look as good as she does when im her age. she's great. my moma will be fifty on the 19th of october which reminds me i need to be thinking of something to get her. im not going to be mean though, because i've heard already of the things other people have planned for her.. anywho, i also shaved garretts head sunday night. i think he was scared, even though the guard was on, i mean if anyone could screw anything up it would have to be me. jk. here's a picture. 

i've been neglecting my book so i guess i'll give it some attention. im never gonna get those "thirty things" done before im thirty..

twenty-one things that annoy me

this is a list of "21" things that i have found annoy me, here we go:
(no particular order)


1. people who don't speak english.


2. white people who think they are black.


3. people who complain or whine constantly.


4. the lady at wal-mart who talks herself through every single move she makes while she is checking you out.


5. rap music


6. when someone leaves a knife on the kitchen counter out in the open.


7. people who stare, its very rude.


8. bruno mars new music video  "the lazy song". i don't care to see him with his pants down around his ankles, much less five other monkeys.


9.  people who smoke right in my face.


10. people who smoke period.


11. loud music in restraunts.


12. when someone leaves the gas pump clicker push in, and gas goes everywhere when i use it. especially if im wearing heels, ick!


13. when rite-aid is all out of my 901B lip shade : (


14. when cashiers put my change on top of the bills, it just ends up on the floor.


15. left over pizza in the refridgerater.


16. people who are naturally gross.


17. merging drivers who don't step on the gas pedal, instead they stop.


18. fat people wearing flip flops.


19. people who change their babies diaper in public places or right in front of you.


20. people who wear their pajama's in public places.


21. overly religious people.