polyvore pfanatic!

elffin' right!

where have i been all my life??

i have been seeing polyvore stamped all over the bloggy world

so i decided to take a wack at it

since i deactivated my facebook account

(you heard me right)

this may be my new obsession?

..if only i could afford these pieces..

this is my first polyvore

it describes me perfectly

im a rockstar!

am i right!?

it gives me the love goosies

you can hear the most beautiful songs you have never heard played lightly in the background of tv shows if you really pay close attention

i found this song while i was watching an episode of ghost whisperer

and it gave me the love goosies right away

the lyrics are the strings that hold my heart together

and hearing it takes a beat away like a breath from my heart

everything

by rob blackledge

standing, here in this moment

watching, tomorrow unfolding

so quietly

it captures me

takes me back to

an innocence,

i barely remember

a hopefulness

a first time together

im trembling

im holding in

but you reach right to me

you see straight through me

everything that i thought never would now is happening

a brand new horizon is opening

im hoping we

don't miss this moment

you showed me how

life is worth living

i have no doubt

it's all about giving

im reaching out

right here right now

don't you see...

i'd give you everything

the first step is always the hardest

but worth it

from the day that we started

we've overcome

we've joined as one

and the stairs are winding

but we keep on climbing

everything that i thought never would now is happening

a brand new horizon is opening

for you and me

don't you see

i'd give you everything



july 31 2009

so there is this guy that i met

his name is garrett

i have been on two dates with him already

they were both great

we stopped talking for a little while

i was crushed

he was too

and couldn't get him off of my mind

i worried about him

i talked to a few guys afterwards

but none of them were him

he wrote me a letter that made me cry

and now we are talking again

 the second date was the charmer

he took me to natchez and we ate at cock of the walk

we sat on a park bench overlooking the river after we ate

we just talked and talked

i think that i have fallen head over heels already

i really like him

theres just something about him 

i have never felt so drawn to someone i barely know like this

taking it slow

im just so glad we are talking again

i really missed it..

its a love rebirth

i know i seem like a girl who could write a sonnet devoted to love

well i could

my heart beats louder than it ever has

its practically beating right from my chest

bomp bomp bomp bomp

in and out each valve of its anatomy

for him

& if there was a prize for the girl with the biggest heart for her man

i believe i would win it

when i think, i write so im writing tonight

im happy

where i am now

with garrett

he is the greatest gift God could ever give me

he's pretty amazing

i was thumbing through some old journals the other day

there were so many memories that i had forgotten so easily

 God obviously has alot to do with the way the heart works

its almost like your born again when you find that special someone

instead of a spiritual rebirth

its a love rebirth

what a silly way to talk of love right?

i had laid those memories to rest so long ago

i found a difference in how i talked of love then & now

not that i needed any sort of confirmation at all

it was just nice to see before my eyes

what a great love i have now

much greater

a love so great it put every page to shame in that old journal

i was so nieve about love then

it wasn't real

i honestly thought my life was over on the last page i read..

....but the truth was

it hadn't even started yet

i have a sweet warm smile to come to now

those arms that hold me with every ounce of care

 lips that speak kind words to me instead of words that hurt

i have it all

i have everything that i never knew i always wanted

and it feels good

badass on a banshee

first of all

it has been a minute since my last post

here is what you missed:

thanksgiving

and it was wonderful and i hope that yours was as well

dressing, turkey, garretts aunt kathys (amazingly yummy) honey ham, and desserts galore
family

it was nice
did i black friday?
jello no!
although i did venture out on some online black friday savings!
i was not about to be dragged out of walmart with a towel wrapped around my neck!

holidays make me excited

especially our next big, big holiday coming up....

christmas

i finally got garretts christmas present ordered and it will be here any day now!

im so excited because i have a feeling he is going to really really love it
it is something he needs
i just hope it does the trick

of course, i can't share with you all because im not sure how much he actually reads my blog posts

i mean, im sure he creeps me

he loves me why wouldn't he?

i would creep me

moving on..

i got my hair cut
(will post pictures later)
and tricked garrett into thinking i cut it this short

it actually looks like it would be very cute, but i just can't cut my nappy hair

so today was dopier than dope

wiggins sand dunes/racing with my love was the plan

i heard the clock at 5:45

hit the shower..

we grabbed the boogie

which is my gps

its a magellan

 why didn't i name it majello?

...and headed out with the crew

rain rain rain was in the forecast of course

but we didn't get too wet
although we (the girls) did get stuck on a monster of all sandhill in the rhino
three damsels in distress
where did our men go?
over the hill
boocockie
luckily there were four handy men there to wrench us down
they just happened to be a racing team abbreviated
(C.R.A.P.)
cactus racing and performance, that is
and they are posting pictures on their facebook page
how embarrasing right?
i think they enjoyed saving three women a little too much

but it could have been a bad deal
but it wasn't
kuddos to the crappers


so to the race hill we go

there was alot of competition..

but

garrett won first place

i wasn't suprised though

how much did he win you ask?

oh, a t-shirt

he calls it his 90 dollar t-shirt

since they all had to pay so much to race

he is such a badass on that banshee

he loves it

& i love him

this is what i call art

..some of the best pieces of art can be found all around you..

it doesn't have to be drawn magnificently on a piece of paper

or painted on a blank canvas

it doesn't even have to be molded from clay

or built from iron

i call these true pieces of art
or i would like to think they are
some may call them vandelism
but in my opinion
its only vandelism if it is ugly
and these are far from it
they are beautiful
to me

i think i'll have a glass of wine now

..so this a.m. could have started out a little easier..

first punch of the day:

i woke up from a really, really bad dream

one of those dreams that makes you feel bad for dreaming such a dream

why did i dream that?

i didn't look it up in my dream dictionary

even though i thought about it

i just felt like it would possibly freak me out even more

so i didn't

i dreamed i watched as one of my close family members was burned to death

i didn't burn the person of course

i just stood there watching as he saw death pursuing him before his eyes

it was detailed, too detailed

& it was like i was helpless, like i couldn't do anything for him

almost like my body was immobilized in an ice cube

i couldn't save him

why couldn't i save him?

i feel horrible for dreaming that

i woke up crying and i felt like i was having a mild panic attack

it really upset me

now i have bad dreams alot

but this particular dream was way past intense for me

but im fine

2nd punch of the day:

i got stung by a wasp on my birdie finger

how ironic

he was in my hair!

i was running around the house

from this wasp that was tangled in my hair!

did i actually think i was running away from it!?

you would have thought i was being murdered as loud as i was screaming

but im fine

after being merely killed i managed to finally make it to the shower

thank you jesus thank you

but the wasp was not dead yet..

i cornered the little beast in the bathroom

mom finished him off for me with my zebra danskos

and down the pipes he went

may you rest in peace home fly

and if your wondering how much worse is it going to get, my day did actually get better

i made it to my orthodontist appointment early

a trip to jackson with a good friend

japenese soul food and canary diamonds

and everything is fine

i love him just like this

auto zone is like a mans jewelry store in a sense

or it is to garrett anyway

he goes in that store so much the cashiers know him by name

and sometimes they even know what he needs before he can spit the words out of his mouth

he goes back and forth through different isles just like i would if i were

trying to make a complex decision between that pair of earrings or this oversized wallet

it will take him at least twenty minutes to figure out what brand of motor oil he wants

and while he is "in the zone" i can't help but stare at him

he is standing there and im watching him thinking to myself

how cute is he is right now? and he has no idea!

i love him just like this

he always makes me giggle to myself in that store too

i mean, its his natural habitat

 when im helping him find the specific oil filter he needs for his truck

we're both knelt down competing to see who can find it first

i'll push him over hoping to give myself a little more time

and usually i find it first

i let him win last night though

he just thought he won

and he gets so excited when he gets to use his auto zone credits

its almost like he gets the same feeling that a person would get after they won the lottery or something

i always find it quite amusing

while the man at the register was checking us out

he said something that really hit heart for me

he said

"the best advise i can give you two is this, forget about the part about it takes 50-50 in a relationship"

and then he cleared his throat and said:

"the way to make it last, is if you both give 100% everyday"

after he told us that he let us know that he had been with his wife for thirty years

i wish that man knew how much those words meant to me

he was right

love takes work

you have to give your all

everyday

theres no excuse for slacking
slacking only gives room for distance

i believe once you realize you love someone

it doesn't just go away

people let it go

and instead of working at it everyday

they give up and toss it out the window

divorces are unreal now and it makes me sad

that noone stays together anymore

its so much easier for people to sign away their marriage for divorce

than to save what they once vowed

love isn't a contract

its a promise

to say you are sorry after every fight
to always kiss each other goodnight
to never grow tired of holding hands in the car
to be there for each other when times get hard
always

i would walk through fire before i let someone i loved walk out of my life

& i won't dare let my heart forget how many beats it takes

i hope in thirty years i will still be with this same amazing guy

and i know that i will love him just as much as i do right now

come rain or shine

he is mine, all mine

there is no success in wishing death

if you want to see evil in the world just take a look around you its not so hard to spot

that is what i realized as i came across a news article written about lindsay lohan last night.

my heart sank in sadness for her as i read the headline that read:

"To Be Successful Again, Lindsay Lohan Must Die"

it is an excerpt from a new book by a former new york daily news gossip reporter named jo piazza, and it suggests this:

At this point yet another glimpse at her prematurely aging breasts paying homage to Marilyn Monroe will not reinvigorate Lindsay's sagging brand and career. The only thing that will save brand Lohan from total Kristy McNichol-dom is if she truly channels Monroe and actually leaves us for good.

the article completely stunned me as i thought to myself

"how could someones lips begin to speak such evil, horrid words toward someone?"

im not a fan of lindsay lohan by no means because i have never thought she was a very good actress

in my opinion

but she is a person

she is more than a "brand"

she has her faults

but look around

there are boocoodles of people who are in her same shoes

everyday spending days, months and years in jail

but do they deserve to be wished death?

no, no one deserves that

these people need help instead

yes many people will say she brought it upon herself

sure she did

but everyone deserves a helping hand

and to mr. piazza:

what makes your life so great that you believe you have the right to say such words?

can't you see above your hollywood piggy bank that this "brand" is more than a headline

she is apart of someone's family

she is someone's daughter

she has a life beneath the star-dom world built on total crap

and it may be true that the world turns their disgrace toward a person of fame to sympathy

after they leave this world

but it shouldn't be like that

we should feel sympathy toward them before they are gone

we may even save their life don't you see?

but the bad thing is

good things don't sell in today's magazines

even if lohan did turn her life around for the better

people want to see others lives go to ruin

i guess because it makes their life seem not so bad

and its a sad thing, but it's true

what is wrong with a woman like her turning her life around for the good?

what if people lifted her up instead of bringing her further down?
what is wrong with a woman like her growing up and getting married

having a family

raising children and loving a man

doing some laundry and dishes

making a good meal and having a good man hug her and tell her

he loves her everyday

what is wrong with her having a real life like billions of others in the world?

i believe she deserves every bit of it

and she can do it if people like piazza would write articles inspiring hope instead of hate towards her

i hope you write

i hope you often look back on your life

i hope you became his wife

i hope you danced in the kitchen

i hope as he prayed you listened

i hope you are still just in love now

as you were back then

i hope he still carrys you through each day

i hope you still hold hands

i hope your love held on

i hope you made it last

i hope you cherished every moment

i hope you spent each day like it was your last

i hope when you look back on the years you often laugh

i hope you wrote each chapter down

i hope you write still even now

god gave me you

i was just thinking about that night we first kissed

it took us what seemed like an hour to say goodnight

the stars were above us and it just felt right

you told me after we kissed that my lips were the softest lips you had ever kissed

and it made me giggle

 it even made me blush

but you didn't know it

i remember thinking to myself

he's it

i knew it the first time our eyes met

honest

and i just thought i loved you then

i remember it didn't take long until i felt like i had known you my whole life

and i had never fallen so hard

i would have never gave my heart to any other guy so fast

but you were different

thats how you know its something really special

sometimes i feel like you are my first love

and the reason is

is because i never had what we have

not even close

until you came along

your the best

God gave me you

and He gave you me

and i want to stay right here with you

through ups and down

no matter what

theres no where i would rather be

than in your arms

we have something worth keeping for a long, long time

i love every moment i spend with you from our hot wing dates to just cuddling on the couch

im my happiest when im with you

i love you garrett

happy two years and three months!

guardian angel dog?

have you ever experienced something you weren't sure about? something that you couldn't really explain so you just kind of naturally kept it to yourself? oh that was nothing, just a figure of your imagination! ..or was it?

well this morning as i was flipping through the tv channels, the dead files was on. i love paranormal shows! even though most of them are likely unbelievable, the thrill of getting spooked and feeling that instant adrenaline rush through your whole body is exciting!

anyway, during the show they were talking about shadow people during their investigation of this elderly womans home, which are said to be really bad spirits. i don't know if i believe all of that but thats really not the point. the point is, it made me think of a time when i saw something, if i saw it and im not even sure i did, but i couldn't explain it and i have only told one person about it.

so don't think im crazy please

last december, i graduated from a program that lasted a year of my life. my parents were against me living by myself an hour away from home, so i had to but my big girl pants on and drive back and forth everyday to and from school. and i did it. well, i had to wake up pretty early to be on time for class that started at 7 or 8 o'clock and sometimes even earlier than that if i had clincal rotations. and if you have ever had to drive back and forth like i did, you know it gets pretty tiring doing it everyday. it takes alot out of your body and when you get home from being gone all day long, you just want to go straight to bed.

im almost there i promise..

the sun was just beginning to show itself on the grass along the interstate while i was driving to school one morning. of course, im half asleep with my radio blarring to extreme volumes, (that was my way of keeping myself awake while i drove) and as i turn my head to take a look, i see what appears to be a dark tall shadow of a greyhound dog running along beside me as i drove. with a quick turn of my head, my eyes jolted back to see what they thought they had seen, but it was gone. no shadow. just sunlight radiating upon the grass.



somewhat of an idea of what is pictured in my mind

 like i said, i don't know if i really saw what i saw. maybe i was hallucinating because i wasn't getting enough sleep? maybe God was trying to tell me something like, "hey your running as fast as a greyhound slow down!" or.. maybe its my guardian angel dog, that'd be pretty dope huh? totally kidding on that last line, don't take that one serious.

but in my mind, i can see what i thought i saw perfectly, so i decided to draw it on paper. and believe me, it wasn't easy to draw, so don't assume i drew it up in a jiffy. but because i used to draw horses alot when i was younger, it wasn't so hard to draw this particular kind of dog. it took a many erasing and redrawings to get it the way i wanted it to look.

it erks me when i think about it, even if i seen it, it sure makes me wonder why? why a greyhound dog? why not a shadow of a giant jungle cat or even a horse? whats the meaning behind this? i sure wish i had a medium handy. jk, but really i don't get it. but that is okay.

so have you ever experienced something like this, what's your take on it??

love don't run

"Love don’t run, love don’t hide It won't turn away or back down from a fight Baby I’m right here and I ain't going anywhere Love’s too tough it wont give up no not on us Baby Love don’t run"

Steve Holy

 to my best friend who is standing at the crossroad of love

you love him

and he loves you very much

i can see it when he looks at you

i can see it when you talk about him

you say your confused and don't know which road to take

you say to yourself things like

how could i just throw away four years?

the answer is don't

once you have it

you got it

it doesn't just disappear or hide

people give up

they shove it under their bed like they would an old pair of shoes

its easier for them to love that way

but love isn't always easy

its hard every now and then

love is testing

don't let it fool you

if it were easy

everyone would have it

but they don't

they forget what love means

and i know you know what it means

but you know what your heart is feeling too

i don't

and if you really listen to what your heart tells you

you will make the best choice

but

its there

it may be hidden underneath thoughts of giving up

but its there

look deep

look hard

it shouldn't be hard to find

rewind

rekindle

love is there and it isn't going anywhere

love your best friend who cares

this old door

this old door stands tall yet humble

though its truth is weathered beneath layers of wonder
paints of browns, greens, blues and soon to be white

its change has marked its age just as a tree marks its life

proclaiming to the world that it has met its height

this old door has made a haven

though its knobs are loose and scratched  from wear through the years

don't you see each time it was turned it brought forth someone nearer?

sounding its welcome from the easy creak of a hinge

how many times must it have been turned and not once acknowledged ?

but it is only a door, yet only a door that should not be forgotten

this old door has had its days

 though it has worn its burdens
it still remains

11.11.11

today is a very special day because it is..

veterans day

&&&

national heavy metal day

so get your rock on

im thankful for my pawpaw

who served for our country

sweetest old man i know

love is worth risking

water for elephants or stupid,crazy,love?

that was the question tonight and what did i choose you ask?

.................

water for elephants of course!

im sure stupid,crazy,love is great and i plan to watch it also

but i was looking for a tear jerker

he loves her

kind of movie

but i just couldn't get over the fact that "the forty year old virgin" was lead actor in stupid,crazy,love

so i begged to differ on that one.

love is worth risking

i love story lines that warm my heart and make me thankful to have such a great guy in my life

and even if you haven't found that special someone yet, those kind of movies give you hope that he is out there

waiting just for you

 giving you peace of mind that someday

he will love you

my favorite part in the movie was when..

oh wait i can't tell you that!

and water for elephants really hit home with me

it made me wonder do we sometimes try to make our lives seem like an illusion

somewhat like in a circus?

i don't even know why that thought came to mind while i was watching it

i tend to dig deep while im watching a movie and i pick apart things in the movie

alot of people tend to overlook i guess

but sometimes i think we try to camoflage what is really going on under our thick shielded skin

we try to dress ourselves in elaborate layers of jewels hoping to hide the unhappiness we feel or maybe the

hurt we cannot bear to share with the world.

it makes you realize its sometimes an ugly/beautiful life

and all this will make sense after you watch the movie of course.

i snuck jovi inside tonight because it is freezing outside

so i turned on my heated mattress pad garrett bought me

"gotta keep my girl warm"

he really does take good care of me

i love him for that

and i pulled out jovis kitty bed she loves so much

she really is spoilt rotten

i think this is all for tonight im too tired to even listen to nikki rant



hey jupiter

okay so i had the perfect title for this post, hey jupiter how's it hanging?, but i thought it would be totally inappropriate : )




don't you just love it when your mind is playing a tune in your head right before you turn on the radio and.. BAM there it is playing on the radio just before your very ears!


it definitely makes you ponder, is it just coincedence or fate?


before i turned my radio on in my jeep this a.m. i was singing "come on, come on, come on, come on baby..." under my breath and when i turned the key it literally finished the line i was singing of ted nugents "strangle hold".


"this is going to be a good, good day self"


i love little moments like that.


but i spoke too soon because..


i decided to go to the tanning bed today... bad idea.


apparently i thought 15 minutes seemed reasonable and i was indeed wrong.


it will be okay though, i tan over pretty fast.


this blog post is kind of swirly, i just have so much to say sorry FTLOB! i broke another rule, yet again.


but my night has been pretty amazing! the weather lady said to look for jupiter in the sky tonight, so that was just what i did!

jupiter is the tiny "star" next to the moon

and i found it, not only did i find it with my tele, i found jupiter and its four surrounding moons!

this is about what i saw in my tele except jupiter had a purple haze around it. it was absolutely beautiful.

pretty dope, if you ask me!


i love this stuff, i am a total dork for it.


im pretty sure i stayed out there numb from the chill in the air for about a good hour!


jovi didn't mind at all, she made biscuits on my four layers of blankets while i got my dork on!


i guess that is all for tonight sweet nuggets, i have to finish listening to nikki sixx blab about how much john lennons rotten tooth sold for.

blind love

let's just be perfectly honest, what thoughts come to mind when we think of a person who is blind?


we feel sadness for that individual automatically, don't we?


maybe we even place that person into a handicapped or special-needs category? 


what a sad life that person must have we think quietly to ourselves. and how scary it must be to only be surrounded by total darkness all the days of your life.


it is hard to imagine that person has never woke up to see the brightness of the sun beaming down upon the clouds in the first hours of daylight.


the very thought of not being able to physically see something so cherished right in front of you, like a newborn baby or the bright red color of septembers beautiful welcoming flower, only using touch as their sense of sight, seems unimaginable in itself.


but what we don't realize is, these people are not handicapped or special in any way. these people are perfectly normal, except they have something beyond what we call "normal" and that is, they have a gift of what i call blind love, and even though i don't wish blindness on anyone, i believe what they possess is beautiful and i think the world could really learn a thing or two from the blind. 

maybe they will never see the sun shining as we do with our eyes, but that doesn't mean they can't feel the crisp warmth of the morning invigorating their chill bumps as they step out onto their front porch that same morning as we do.


i have never been blind by no means, but i can imagine that person stands a few moments longer than we do, hoping to grasp every ounce of sunlight they possibly can. i imagine God looks down from the heavens and smiles upon that person thankful that someone took the time to enjoy what He created just out of glory for us. what a beautiful person, what an advantage he/she has over me, i could only bet your thinking right now.


maybe that person will never see the sweet dimples forming on a babys face as it giggles, but i can imagine that same person holds that child in a much different way as we do, a more sentimental way that we could never imagine. every laugh, giggle, cry and burp is remembered and recollected in their mind i can only but wonder.


and like i said before, i don't wish blindness on myself or anyone for that matter, but i truly believe God has his reasons. i believe, he chose those people and thought so much of them  that He wanted to give them the gift of a different kind of love, he gave them the gift to be able to see things in a much more beautiful way, a way in which a person can only see without the sense of sight.


i hope we look past the thoughts of sadness for these people, because i can bet they don't want to be felt sorry for. i hope we learn to enjoy the little things in life in the same way that they do. we should be thankful for everything we see, feel, touch, hear and smell in the world.

and i hope we can someday see love in a blind perspective. 

this is all i got

i have decided to compile a list of things that i bet you didn't know about me, mainly because i have nothing else to talk about tonight. super dooper, here we go:

1. i have two "snake bite" freckles on my neck just like actress rachel mcadams ( allie on the notebook). pretty dope.

2. i dislike donuts, actually they dislike me. im thinking i may have donaphobia.

3. when most girls would tell you their favorite movie is "the notebook", i would tell you mine is "armaggedon", mainly because the soundtrack is pretty much aerosmith, but the movie really does make me cry like a baby.

4. my favorite cartoon when i was little was aahh real monsters, 90's kid i was.

5. i have a knife phobia.

6. i used to have bleach blonde hair and i actually thought it looked good then. wrong.

7. i collect sock monkeys, blue willow china, and tea pots.

8. my favorite color is yellow and my favorite flower yellow roses.

9. i have really, really bad luck with animals.

10. the thought of getting wrinkles scares me.

11. i love audrey hepburn and i watch all of her films.

12. i hate my upper lateral incisors.

13. the worst pain i have ever experienced was when i stepped on a toothpick and it went half way into my heel. yes, ouch!

14. i plan to rock black converse shoes under my wedding dress when i get married.

15. my favorite tv show is that metal show. love those guys.

16. i love an amaretto sour.

17. i wish my name was spelled differently.

18. i love avenged sevenfold's lead singer m. shadows (matt sanders) voice.

19. my favorite thing to wear around the house is my run dmc t-shirt and a pair of black leggings.

20. i want to go to key west.

peanut butter pancakes

the only aggravation i faced today was this: seeing slash on that metal show for the 100th time. so in other words, today was great. i mean, i love slash don't get me wrong, but why can't they show newer episodes?? i have seen them all. except for the episode with joey kramer. i keep missing it and i need to see joey! we share the same birthday PLUS he is the drummer for aerosmith. we have a connection, you see?

oh, it's only my favorite tv show ever

so while i was making peanut butter pancakes this evening, i thought of something really cool to write about. listen up, this be the bible of the blues.

top ten things that i spend money on:

(this could be interesting, right?)

no particular order homies

1. victoria's secret pink collection

2. tall sugar free red bull energy drinks

3. rolling stone magazines

4. mcdonald happy meals

5.black & gray eyeshadow shades i swear i have them all

6. quirky books that noone but me buys for some reason

7. bedding/pillows

8. gas for my jeep beep

9. odd ball items that make me giggle

10. i play my chances at the toy vending machines, even though i never ever win. but oneday, i will.

and you know what? it is really funny to see what kind of things i spend my money on, compared to other girls. because here is my list of things i would think most girls would spend their money on. i still fall into a few of these, of course but just not near as most girls do.

1. spray tans/tanning bed

2. manicures & pedicures

3. shoes, shoes, shoes

4. purses

5. designer sunglasses

6. hair extensions

7. hair care period

8. designer jeans

9. im running out

10. of things now..

but you get the point right?

and maybe im just a weirdo, but that is okay i suppose : )

i miss my boyfriend

so today was pretty rad.

i woke up with a nyquil hangover, great way to start off the day right?

i slept great though, and i needed it.

sinuses are killa.

a trip to jackson why not?

mmk here we go.

hey why not throw in a tattoo?

not for me though, of course not.

i held my friends hand as she endured the pain.

i told her it wouldn't hurt.

oops.

she lives.

so best buy took us all the way around the world.

for a stinkin' usb dial up modem

which could have been avoided if only my parents would change to high speed.

they just don't listen.

bummer.

there goes 50 bucks.

wasted?

maybe so, since my sorry computer doesn't come equipted with a CD drive for the installation cd.

boocockie!

petsmart.

i want a baby rat.

i can't, i won't, i want him.

bad idea.

get me out of this store.

he is only 6.99, why not?

rats are stinky.

right!

victoria's secret?

yes please.

holy crap i spent way too much.

i forgive myself.

breathe.

mugshots.

2 long island ice teas for amber.

H20 with lemon for me.

i think i'll have a salad.

my friend is embarrasing me.

lets get out of here.

im driving, hand over the keys dude.

oh, of course i would get lost the one time my friend is intoxicated.

here we go.

where do i go?

why are those people honking at me, stop!

wait, where did 1-55 go?

and now im actually taking directions from a drunk?

wow, she knows what she is talking about!

whew!

home bound.

and i really miss garrett, but today was great.

it's dope

please i can explain! that is, for my lack of posting lately. but i do have a fairly good excuse and that is: my computer hates me. it is so true, see it has these "spaz-out" moments every now and then where the screen goes totally black due to being abused with pledge furniture polish once upon a time ago. who could have done that you ask? oh, just my little nephew. he really was in truth only trying to help his aunt cowie out though at the time. i could never be mad at that little koolaid covered angel face. so.. im back but not in black! look at me spitting out ac/dc jokes! chessy so cheesy. maybe i should omit that.. nah! so this is for you shell bell, my faithful reader!


halloween was so much dopier than i planned! and i overuse that word. anyway, it was! i dressed jovi in her witch outfit and i was... amy winehouse. yes, of course i was! i think i did pretty good with it myself, see what you think.

and fyi, i was in no way making fun of amy winehouse. i actually love(d) her music, she had a lot of problems, but in the music world you have to look past those problems. she was an amazing singer, and her voice was a gift to this world that will never be forgotten. it was so unique in itself, full of bluesy raspy sound that would just enchant you. sure, many people in this world have a nice voice, but to have an electrifying sound like hers, it is hard to come by. it's like janis or joan man, the beatles, the stones, zeppelin or tyler.. oh i could on and on..

and im rambling..


but back to it, by the end of the night my costume took a turn for the worse. i guess i got bored with my amy look so i decided i would spruce it up a bit by adding my aunts pastel printed reading glasses, a brown sequin headband and some billy bob teeth to top it off. and again, i wasn't making fun of amy, God rest her soul, so maybe she won't haunt me for it. and here it is, check it out.

a couple of days ago i was going to post a picture of my nirvana inspired scarecrow, but well you know what happened. so here it is too.