come what may and love it

im getting older

and the thought of it instantly sends realization chills raging through my veins

the same veins that have grown along with me every day of my life
 each branching into new directions

somewhat like my life has over the past twenty-one years

they say as you get older

the years seem to pass by quicker than you can blink your eye

i never thought i would say the same

but i am

i can think back to when i was a little girl

it comes as snapshots to my mind
there i am twirling in my sisters poodle skirt that swallowed my tiny body in the front yard

the wind making the moment seem magical

singing along with patty loveless to "i try to think about elvis" 

she was the spark that began my love for music

i didn't know it then but i was taking my first baby steps toward performing

on that old wooden deck of ours filled with our countless cats we seemed to inherit

 from the neighborhood

the woods and those cats being my audience

mom and dad would sneak peaks from the french doors overlooking me

music was destined to be with me

its funny how things change

like the woods

the old wooden deck

me

i have experienced everything a girl should have experienced so far in life

from being the silly freckled faced five year old

to the heart broken sixteen year old

friends have been made

and sadly have been lost

high school seems so long ago already

i remember thinking to myself on that last day of school

"where am i going now?"

and the funny thing is

im still asking myself the same question

where am i going now?

as i look in the mirror

i can still see myself singing and dancing on that stage of mine

i see the same eyes that cried for reason when the first guy broke my heart

but i also see a girl who has become her own

a girl who overcome everything she thought she wouldn't so far

and even though she thought she lost her heart back then

she never did

she never lost it

she saved it for someone who never knew he was waiting for it

someone who would take care of it

so i gave him my heart

 where ever im going

im going

im on my way

day by day

i don't know what will come

but i know that i am the happiest that i have ever been in this moment that im living right now

& i know there will be trials

there will be days when i think i can't handle the things that come my way

i will see both rain and shine

come what may
i will love it